Thursday, December 18, 2008

Burger King line

So I've arrived in the San Jose, CA airport.  I've survived the security screening (had to take off my belt, and I almost forgot to take off my shoes).  I found myself waiting in line at the airport Burger King. As I stand there, my first impression is that the people in front of me must really be struggling to make up their minds about what to order...
I mean, really struggling: they seem zoned out.  
It is at this moment that I experience the first act of public kindness that I've seen in California in over 5 months: a gentlemen behind me kindly points out that I'm waiting in the "wrong" line and that  I need to step forward to order.  A metal border divides the order-ees from the orderers.  Turns out that I was on the wrong side...
I offer to let him order ahead of me, and he politely states that "you were there first."
Now you may be saying to yourself "The guy just showed you the right place to place your order.  No big deal."  Well, in the bay area of California, this is a big deal.  At least to me.  
When I first arrived in California, I immediately noticed the thick cloud of apathy.  I desired to squash it with an attitude of love, patience, and servanthood.
Sadly, I've found myself weighed down all too often at times by that thick, dark cloud,---after just 5 short months of living here.
Therefore, it was especially memorable to see a small, meaningful act of kindness.  It reminded me of the importance of serving others (and how serving others does not have to be a monumental undertaking).  It also reminded me that the people and experiences which occur in my sphere of the world, are NOT an accurate reflection of the *entire* planet.  I live in one of the most historically crude, cut through states in the nation--and the industrialized world.  I don't have to act like it.
It really helps be reminded that I'm not alone in my mission to see less apathy, and that there really are others out there who are not afraid to live out that mission, too.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

So full...and thankful

Good food and family sometimes seem hard to come by. I have adopted many a friends to be family. I have also adapted many recipes and made them my own. For the fourth or so year I have run the kitchen for Thanksgiving solo. Everyone likes to try and help but I prefer to do it myself. I have too many things going on to have to figure out what to tell someone to do and in the end them helping stresses me out....with that said.

I am thankful that I have people to call family that are there for me even when I think I don't need it. I am thankful that for the time being... I have a roof over my head, a job and a fridge full of food.

Thank you to all those that may I not know your face I know your hearts and have been an ear... even when I didn't know I needed it.

Happy Thanksgiving yall!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

slacker slacker slacker

I really need to keep on this thing right? Cause of all the readers... wait... there's just me. ANYWAY!!

I have recently has some sort of mind shifting, mind blowing, heart warming Karina mental moments lately.

I no longer care about a lot of things. The negative was left somewhere in my past where it should stay. Which is not to say I don't bad days, REALLLLLLLY bad days. After all we don't know the good without the bad right. I am saying that I know that everything in life must be a lesson or what is the point. Don't hold the bitter in or it will rot the savory and sweet moments in your life. I can only live each day for what it is and I can only love me and those around me for what and who they are.

I am a new me and that's all I can be. I am Karina. I am a strong beautiful smart woman who is learning what she wants and how to get it. Love me for me and who I am right now not who I can or will be.... I know I am.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

So cute

15 years together and they are still so cute.
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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Happiness is...

Warm breeze and cool grass


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Naked feet

Are happy feet


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Woot

I got a bike I got a bike
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Friday, July 11, 2008

Who am I?

And while we're at it who are you?


I am very proud on my outlook of things. I realize that I put importance in and on the wrong things and that made me feel a little lost in who I am. I know that there are things that I am willing to stand up for and protect. I am not the type of person that wants a quick fix because I know that they aren't fixes. In a motifed version fo the old saying... that which does kill us or at least hurt...will make us stronger mentally. I am resiliant like a reed in the water, I am tough like a rock on the shore, I am Karina and I like me for me. Or the me that I am finally starting to see without outside influence. Though influences aren't bad. I just know that in past and even currently that there were things in my life that took over and I have an obsessive personality. I am willing to throw myself into things just for see if they fit. I have now modified that into trying things and taking from it what I can and moving on to the next new and exciting adventure. I have been to two concerts this week with people I have never hung out with. One a random person I men and the other a potential new really great set of friends (co-worker and wife). I am really realizing in my hard times who I can call friend. And I had hidden myself away from expierenceing things and life for far too long. I am getting better at doing things for and by myself. This weekend will be a first for going to an all day music festival solo. Perhaps I will make new friends there as well.


today's happy: A smile that starts on the inside and a hairs cut.

Above water or enjoying the swim?

I've relocated to sunny, (currently much too hot) Northern California.  It has been quite the adventure.  I've experienced several opportunities to put my head down, but I'm not giving up!  What is the secret?  My trust, hope and love of my Heavenly Father.
I realize that I can choose to see these challenges as survival "just above" water, or I can learn to enjoy the "swim".  I choose to enjoy the swim!  California is full of things to do.  :)    I was at the mall yesterday and I realized how much there is to do, and how many things I really enjoy there!  There is no way back home that I'd find an Apple Store in the mall, as well as a 3rd party Mac-repair company kiosk.  Simply sweet!  I'm thankful for this opportunity to relocate.  I know that I need to keep positive and hopeful.  I'm certain that God is not finished with me and that He will complete the good work He began in me.


Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Indeed

Some days are indeed better than others. I am still managing to focus on me through all the crappy days. I tried a new workout tape this weekend and it kicked my butt. I only did 5 of the 20 minutes but wow. OUCH! I went for a walk after work lastnight and it was painful going down hills. I could barely raise my arms. Note to self: get lighter weights.

It seems far too many people are having bad days, myself included, but there are always good days or even moments during the day to lift us up above the drowning level.

Don't sweat the small stuff.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Update

Beans are doing super awesome. I just wish I had more direct sun on my patio area so they could really bloom. Perhaps I will have to get a heat lamp for them. See if I can glow some tomatoes. That would be sweet. I still miss my old apartment in that aspect. The afternoon sun that warmed my face as I napped on the couch is dearly missed but this place is bigger and better in some ways. We can't be happy all the time but for now... I am feeling more motivated to do healthy things for myself and to get out of the office and away from my desk on my breaks and lunch. I think it's better for everyone that way. Too much distraction and waaaaaaaaay too easy to just work instead of taking time for myself.

There is a lady at my office that is a great inspiration. She started at what I can only assume was over 300 lbs and has dropped 65 at last count. She is very proud of herself and her improving health is a huge motivation. I realized that though I complained a little bit the sore legs were a great feeling. It meant I used them.

*raises a glass of water*
Here's to health!!

Thursday, May 29, 2008

motivation

Todays happy was me motivating myself into working out. I have discovered the difference between getting out there and getting out there and enjoying it is technology. haha I know sounds strange but I used my GPS unit to track how far and MPH. I also used music on my iPod as motivation for my feet to move faster. I tell you walking to Flogging Molly is dangerous, but fun.

I am acknowledging Matthews mess giggle and adding that I knocked over a few things today but the mess made me happy. It meant I was making progress with what needed to be done. There is always a huge mess before a clean area when it involves me.

:)

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Paper on the floor


At work today, I was scanning over 50 pages into a multipage scanner.  Normally, there is a tray attached at the bottom to catch the paper from falling on the floor.  Not today.  The tray was missing.  Papers flew everywhere!
What could very well have been a frustrating event (entering my workplace with papers scattered on the floor) became a laughable moment.  

It got me thinking: Name something in your day that you can choose to laugh about instead of let fluster you?  

Enjoy today!

A moment in time

Recently I've been giving attention to what it means to slow down and appreciate a moment.  I've learned all too often that many "life lessons" are the tail end of someone else's experience. That is to say they are a reflection on their past rather than equipping others for living.  If I try to bend, twist and pull their "life lessons" into my current circumstances, I just burn myself out trying to be someone else.

Having learned this lesson, has brought about a great sense of relief, as I have allowed myself to try and live out someone else's experiences.  Instead, I'm more inclined to hear the person out, see if and how their experiences may be helpful to my present circumstances or attitudes.  

That being stated, please read the post by embracing the understanding  that these tips are my experiences along my life journey, and just may provide some equipping to you along yours...

1. Come as you are, not as you think you ought to be.

I found myself in the habit of criticizing what I ought to be instead of looking around and seeing what is happening in the moment.  Grace for the moment goes a long way. 

2. Be open to the next thing coming, but not too anxious for it.

In my faulty attempts to live in the moment, I've tried staying in the moment by controlling it--or--zooming right past it, on to the next thing.  Neither one of these work.  It's important to recognize and to adjust when the time has come to move on, but no need to run toward change before you appreciate the present.

3.  Remove what you know hinders or distracts you.  

Yesterday I googled "how to stop surfing the web".  It's quite a funny thing to search for, considering that you are looking on the web for tips on how not to use the web.  The point is, I know I've recently spent too much time online and there is a time to remove the  distraction.

Enjoy today!


Monday, May 19, 2008

Test

Life is uncertain eat dessert
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I have beens!!!

Today my happy moment was when my hands were in dirt. I miss gardening with my mom. Sadly I stopped doing that when I was in high school but this year I think I shall add that back to my agenda. Hopefully I will get my fill of dirty days and possibly find something to do with my mother that isn't screaming or shopping. Both are tiresome.

Tip of the day: Find something you miss and jump in and get dirty.

Just the good stuff

Life is filled with so much good, bad and ugly. Unfortunately the latter two are what make us realize the first. I hope that someone wanders across this blog and can take from it a little something. We often get busy with our lives and forget to enjoy the little things. If you do come across this and want to share please comment or possibly join the team of the joys of little things.