Finally an answer is near. Tonight is the sleep study. Perhap an end to my hypnopompic hallucinations. Stay tuned for details...
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Here's to hoping I am successful.
PS- hi Anita...I know you're my only reader.
Monday, July 2, 2012
I have many goals in my life that I am currently trying to actualize and though I may not have the collection of friends I once had the ones remaining are solid. I know that I can turn to the people in my life for the mental sanity I need. They each play a very different role.
Chris my mental sanity specialist.
Ang my weight loss and nutrition motivator.
Travis my creative release expert.
Don my Jimny Cricket.
...to name a few.
All are reciprocal friendships and that is how it should be. All those that I have lost over the years felt one sided and I knew that before they went away. With the friends I have now there are pleases and thank you's. There are good days and bad days. There is no negatives and I am happy with the crew of friends I have collected or that have collected me.
“A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.”
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Why do cops get to ignore the laws they are to be upholding? Again as I said, in certain situations there are exceptions. Traffic is not an exception. If you are a cop, by yourself, no passangers... GET OUT OF THE CARPOOL LANE. I have to sit in traffic so should they. Lights not going so clearly not on their way to an incident.
Today it was even better. In the carpool lane, speeding while tailgating the pool dude following the rules in from of him.
I wonder if I do the same shit and get a ticket if but I saw a cop doing it would stand up in court? I wish there was a way to get them on that shit. Where do I complain to?
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
I just have really had it with the whole bitch about rain thing. I have lived in Washington my whole life minus a few years away for school. Shit even when I lived in Philly people didn't bitch as much as people in Washington. When they get rain there it's torrential and it floods the streets. Granted people thought I was crazy for walking to school in t-shirt and shorts in monsoon weather. Soggy shorts are better than soggy jeans.
Same goes for lack of summer. If you don't like rain or mild climate LEAVE!! Or even worse people that bitch when it's nice out about how it's gonna rain soon. Fucking enjoy the sun you dipshits. You want it so much. Please for the love of Washington get the fuck out of my state. Your constant whining about the lack of sun and too much rain is ruining my bliss. Either accept what you have or change it. It's like waking up every morning and being surprised there's a nose on your face. Accept that shit. I cannot find the proper words for how done I am with you people. STFU!!
Saturday, June 16, 2012
I often feel like I should have been born under a water sign. As much as being a virgo fits me I am happiest in and around water. The sound of rain luls me to sleep. The glistening green of a rushing river calls to me and I get lost in the happy dance of the curves of the river. The season to swim is upon us and I am fully ready to undulge my inner water dog.
Go out and dip your toes people...it's worth it.
Friday, February 10, 2012
Tourettes .. I have figured out what mine is. It is the same as my mother. I can't not talk. Yes double negative and all.
Basically my entire family has A.D.D. and tourettes. I know I have A.D.D. if not A.D.H.D. and it was a matter of time before I deemed something my tourette. And I have figured it out as I said. My involuntary sudden vocal outburst is in the form of not being able to talk. I shout answers at strangers in grocery lines, restaurants, basically anywhere a conversation goes on. In realizing this it has made my participation in classes awkward. I want to ask questions but is it because I feel like I have to participate or is it just a way for me to segway into telling a story. I never used to be like this. I am starting to consider duct take.
EDIT: perhaps this is all a function of facebook society with the need to comment on everything. Perhaps it is time to quit facebook again.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Nurse reveals the top 5 regrets people make on their deathbed | Arise India Forum - Dispel illusion and hatred..establish truth!!
It is sad how many people end up having regrets in life. I feel like so far in my existence I have done pretty well. I am self aware enough to know when I am being stupid and try and correct the path. I am trying to not live my life in a constant state of coulda shoulda woulda. I am mindful of my actions even if I am still stubborn most days. Perfection isn't a goal because its unattainable so I just aim for the best I can do. I know I am falling short but again... I am working on changing a lot of things in my life. Change is good and I am trying to no longer fear it.
Live your life like its ending because it is... just very slowly. One day at a time be a better you.