Pretty

Sunshine been keeping me up for days
There is no nighttime, it's only a passing phase
And I feel pretty, pretty enough for you
I felt so ugly before
I didn't know what to do
Sometimes is all I feel up to now
But it's not worth it to you, 'cos you gotta get high somehow
Is it destruction that you're required to feel?
Like somebody wants you, someone that's more for real?
Sunshine been keeping me up for days
There is no nighttime, only a passing phase
And I'll feel pretty another hour or two
I felt so ugly before
I didn't know what to do
I felt so ugly before
I didn't know what to do
I felt so ugly before
I didn't know what to do
Ugly before

I don't feel pretty for me but I do occasionally feel pretty for others. I need to find how to feel it for me.

I would like...

to have less anger. For no reason or silly reasons. I want to be happy and not worry and have no stress and never be ill. But that is not life. That isn't fair to the good days to have the bad days go away so easily. For the record though... don't push it. Just don't. I think I am a simple person to understand but, for some reason some people hear my words in another language.

I just want communication without all the weird hostility and misunderstandings. Mostly I just want to feel important. Is that asking too much? Is wanting to be part of something so wrong?

Some days really are better than others and though today has its rough points it is still one of the good ones. I am happy for not only my but my friends and families health. I am thankful that every day I wake up and can move and am free, for the most part. I am thankful that there are no road blocks that are unmanageable currently in my life. I am thankful for what I have and don't have.

Today was a good but frustrating day.

Thanks for listening.

:)

Good jorb!

Old unpublished post saved with no content just the above title. I dunno what or who for but.... good jorb y'all.