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sticky things get OFF!!

Pretty

Sunshine been keeping me up for days
There is no nighttime, it's only a passing phase
And I feel pretty, pretty enough for you
I felt so ugly before
I didn't know what to do
Sometimes is all I feel up to now
But it's not worth it to you, 'cos you gotta get high somehow
Is it destruction that you're required to feel?
Like somebody wants you, someone that's more for real?
Sunshine been keeping me up for days
There is no nighttime, only a passing phase
And I'll feel pretty another hour or two
I felt so ugly before
I didn't know what to do
I felt so ugly before
I didn't know what to do
I felt so ugly before
I didn't know what to do
Ugly before

I don't feel pretty for me but I do occasionally feel pretty for others. I need to find how to feel it for me.

I would like...

to have less anger. For no reason or silly reasons. I want to be happy and not worry and have no stress and never be ill. But that is not life. That isn't fair to the good days to have the bad days go away so easily. For the record though... don't push it. Just don't. I think I am a simple person to understand but, for some reason some people hear my words in another language.

I just want communication without all the weird hostility and misunderstandings. Mostly I just want to feel important. Is that asking too much? Is wanting to be part of something so wrong?

Some days really are better than others and though today has its rough points it is still one of the good ones. I am happy for not only my but my friends and families health. I am thankful that every day I wake up and can move and am free, for the most part. I am thankful that there are no road blocks that are unmanageable currently in my life. I am thankful for what I have and don't have.

Today was a good but frustrating day.

Thanks for listening.

:)

Good jorb!

Old unpublished post saved with no content just the above title. I dunno what or who for but.... good jorb y'all.

Change

Yet again I feel like I'm mid identity crisis and it calls for change in looks, style, attitude and life style. If you cant love yourself who will so it has to start with you.

I plan on not failing this time. School, new job soon *crosses fingers*, I need to clean my house/heart/mind or I will lose it soon.

GO TEAM KARINA!!!

Perhaps perhaps perhaps

No processed food is hard because we as Americans are lazy slobs that are all about instant gratification. I will try to be unAmerican this week and get off my fat ass and do something for my body that is good.

I will try this one again starting tomorrow. It IS the season of garden veggies from my moms.

See more progress on: no processed foods for a week

Restart no. 283

Its amazing. When left with nobody but yourself around and with nothing to do you have amazingly less to make excuses about. Why do we make excuses for ourselves? It gets us nowhere. Makes no advanced in our lives, gives no advance at all. We are merely cheating ourselves of the truth. There is always some pain in growth. If you don't occationally do thing wrong how will you learn. Lety me tell you I've done a lot of learning in my short 30 years of mistakes or is that the other way around? 30 years of mistakes here and there have made for one hell of a learning expierence. Any such the case... I'm just saying it time to be honest with myself and learn a little more.

PS- damn you OCD!!!
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