Life

There are legit ups and downs to life.  There are many many days of perception imbalance. A bit of a mental adjustment can do wonders.  I know I may not be able to stop the crazy train (of thought) some days but as long as I see the fault and can correct it even a little for the next time (ie lessons learned) I feel I can still call it a win.

What do you do when you get off track mentally?
What is your emotional reset button?
What activity or person is your solace when nothing seems to be going right?

What is your guiding light?

All we can do in this life is keep moving forward. A limitation of movement in the physical world can be a mere manifestation of a stagnation in spirit or emotional well being. This includes illness. Soul worry is unprocessed events, emotions and thoughts. We are in a world of sick people avoiding things in their life that ends up causing so much more pain than just dealing with it. I have come to understand that what we hold on to is what makes the illness in the body and mind, not what we let go of.

Change

There alsmost always comes a time when you call bullshit on yourself. A point in which you have to say enough is enough and though I may be a little behind at least I am hitting that point. I have made a list of things that without a doubt I need to work on and it is as follows....

Things that NEED to change!

• defeatist attitude
• being overly reactive
• being overly emotional
• making excuses
• trying to please everyone at my own cost
• caring too much about what others think
• not giving it my best ALWAYS!
• negative self talk
• negative self image
• giving up easily
• not pushing myself (until it hurts)
• imaginary crutches
• imaginary walls to goals
• not reaching goals
• due to excuses
• due to laziness
• due to being all Karinery

I know I have flaws and accept them and myself for what I am. However, I am no longer using any of that as excuses to not succeed. Just because something doesn't go right the first time doesn't mean that is the end of the journey. Get up, get moving, make changes. Not in a minute, not when it is convenient, NOW!!

Sleep study

Finally an answer is near. Tonight is the sleep study. Perhap an end to my hypnopompic hallucinations. Stay tuned for details...

Me time

Girls gotta have me time. Sometimes bath seem to wash away the worries. Especially when you have a bath guardian.

Soooo tired

7am bath to get me back to sleep. Lazy? Or needed?

The power of DON'T and CAN'T

It's amazing the power of one word. It can sooth us with someone telling us don't worry, we can do this. And it can completely warp your mind and do the exact opposite of its intent. Example: for the next 5 minutes don't scratch your skin. Do you instantly feel an itch forming somewhere on your body? Just writing this my head and elbow started itching. My recent run ins with don't have been in two areas. I am on a new path towards health and fitness. I have to remind myself that I shouldn't eat naughty foods or too much. I only crave chocolate and donuts when I know I shouldn't be eating them. "Don't even look at that chocolate bar." It seems like every time I try to start a new workout routine my body pulls a "don't". I get one or two workouts in and then I get some sort of plague and then backpain and something pulled.